It’s been a month since I lost my youngest son. This picture was taken about 2 weeks before his loss. There is much upheaval in the family with my other children as they wonder if there was something they could have done, if they could have reached out more, feeling guilty because they took him for granted, etc. I want them to understand that I too have the same feelings. I need them to know that there was nothing they could have done. I want to tell them that maybe taking him for granted will help us all as we go forward to remember that life is fragile and we should relish all our relationships. I wanted to thank them for their help with his funeral arrangements and the financial support they are giving for that purpose. That shows me how much they loved him, and it speaks volumes, because I know their financial situations are as precarious as mine. Life is short and we shouldn’t put off spending time with those we love.
I have started to spin a little bit again, and I’ve been working on some dishclothes during my lunch hour at work, I’m too tired to knit when I get home from work – I’m not sleeping real well. This is the last one I finished. You can’t really see the pattern very well because the color obscures it. The yarn is Sugar N’ Cream Stripes and I thought I remembered where I got the pattern but I can’t find it at the moment. If I’m able to remember it, I will edit this post and put a link in. I’m working on a different pattern now, that will end up being a smaller kitchen towel, but I’ve had to frog it twice already. I’ll get it done, it’s not hard, my thinking is just not always on task at the moment.